DAY 19 : IT'S NEVER TOO LATE TO QUIT

1 November 2015, 10:23 p.m

DAY 19 (FINALLY.. I beat my last record)

Yeah, sorry for not giving you update yesterday.. Haha. i got some problems actually, and also some business, and some procrastinating thing.

It's crazy that for the last 2 days, i've been struggling with urges. Yeah, i just realized that my friend is right, when he said that Day 18-21 could be the one of the toughest. I even almost relapsed. But, actually, "almost relapse" is not the main theme here.

Yeah.. actually, during my porn addiction quit, i have downloaded a countdown application called NoFap Companion (you can call it nF Companion), here is the screenshot of the app

If you look at the below, there is a quote that will motivate you. You can adjust whether the quotes are shown daily, hourly, or whatever.. And, throughout that, there is one quote that really gets my mind. And the quote is :

“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.” H. Jackson Brown Jr.

When i read this quote first, i suddenly think that is really happening for me. I mean, seriously! I have been struggling to quit from this addiction on 9 months. And, i only decided to be serious about it 19 days later. I mean, i really ask myself why so late. I imagined if i had seriously started about this 9 months ago, i could have gained full recovery, i mean, i could be a better person.

As you already know before, porn really destroys everything for me. 

It destroys your mind, my GPA started to decrease since this porn addiction (i even have gained C from one lesson, it really hurts me, but thanks i have fixed it well)

It destroys your relationship, my friend started to be away from me

It destroys your soul, i started to become angry and undecisive

It destroys your passion, yeah.. i should have done something more productive, but i didn't make it due to my porn consumption

You can read the whole words in this post

I also feel the same way throughout my academic life, yesterday i did a test, and i scored really well. And, i just realized, i scored well because i didn't think much of the test. I used to think too much about any test, and it really hurts me, because sometimes, i scored lower. And, i asked, why didn't i do it throughout my whole test that i've experienced before?

But, yeah.. it's never too late to quit from everything. Because, better late than never. As long as you can do it well and do it better, you will still get any reward. Right now, for those of you who is still struggling to start quit from porn addiction, yeah, JUST QUIT!! Because, one day, you will feel the same as me. You'll ask yourself why hadn't i quit since then?

Yeah.. after you read this post, DON'T YOU EVER THINK ABOUT PORN ANYMORE!!! JUST QUIT IT!!! HERE IS THE SPEECH FOR YOU!!