DAY 1!
I have relapsed from porn 10 hours ago, and i still feel really stressed about it. But, i always read some great words like,
"fall 7 times, wake up 8 times" or "if you failed a lot, you just found lots of way to prevent it", or whatever..
"fall 7 times, wake up 8 times" or "if you failed a lot, you just found lots of way to prevent it", or whatever..
Those words really make me thinking that i just know where and which one will trigger me to relapse again. So, i think, i have to talk about the things that can make me relapse again, and i just want to share you all, and my planned solutions for the trigger, so by knowing my trigger, i will give my real strategy to help me quit
1. Of course, being alone! Being alone is always a mistake. you can end up getting lots of sins.. So, maybe, if i feel alone, i need to write something on this blog or even listen to some good music or watch some concerts, or maybe watch some movies (normal movie i mean), or watch some funny or educative shows, and also learn some new knowledge.
2. Wearing shorts! Sometimes, wearing shorts can make you feel the urge, so this time, i won't use shorts anymore
3. Staying up at night! The funny thing is i have sleeping disorder, and it is.. i used to sleep at 8 or 9 p.m, wake up again at 12-2 a.m, have Isha' prayer and try to sleep again. But, i usually can't sleep, so i used my phone for that stuff. But, for now, maybe, i just try to not to have a continuous sleep, i mean, sleep and wake up. not, sleep-wakeup-sleep-wakeup. This can trigger my brain to consume porn/
4. Using VPN application (in computer or even tablet). Reddit and Vimeo sites are blocked in my country due to some reasons, so if i really want to open it, i need to download VPN application. This also indirectly will help me to open porn sites without any resistance. So, i can just say, this will trigger me to relapse. So, maybe, i will be uninstalling all VPN applications and also not opening reddit.
I have asked lots of friends about their struggle, yeah, seems the first and second week is going to be very difficult, because i often relapsed on that period. So, right now, i need to prepare and also i need some assistance that i can have from my friends.
Right now, i am also having a war in Battle Goal applications, so for those who relapsed. They will be told the loser, so it's like a big competition, and i really like competition!! I also joined two Whatsapp group for those who are struggling to quit porn. So, i think, it's not gonna be hard anymore. Because, we are struggling each other and motivating each other to be a better person
Yeah, good luck for me and the whole porn addict who really wants to cut this addiction to zero!
Maybe, i will just say this, i will write everything in this blog minimal one post for a day, if i failed, i will call myself having a "relapse" from porn. My minimal target is 10 days and i want to push everythng so i can be a better person again.
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