24 October 2015 10:05 a.m (GMT+7)
Day 10.5 (i supposed to write hours before, on 23 October, but, due to assignment, i write it now, on Day 11)
If you're reading this post, i almost relapsed!!! It's actually crazy because i almost relapse after 10 Day of struggle.. it all started because i saw a nude video by accident, and the urge is really going high after that. This event happened when i slept after working on assignments.. and it happened before i sleep!! Yeah, i often also relapsed before i sleep
Hours before that, i also gained an urge after havig stressed due to my friend's bullshit joke. They used my bad past as a joke, and somehow, i feel so uncomfortable. So i ended up telling about the urge to my friends. And to decrease it, i watched a documentary of famous hiphop group named N.W.A (if you guys know Straight Outta Compton, you know who they are). and yeah, i overcome it well
So, for those two events, i didn't end up masturbating or even continuing to get exposed on pornography. But, they both give me urges that is always hard to overcome. And right after i woke up, i did evaluation on why i let those urges happened.
And, i just found out that i slept too late, at that night, i slept around 1 a.m, and i just realized i forgot what i have written before, that i have to sleep earlier to prevent the urge to hit me again.
So, if you're reading this post, please sleep early!! I mean, seriously! SLEEP EARLY!! At least, sleep based on your biological clock, or the easy way, sleep based on when you used to!!
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