DAY 27 (it's been a really long achievement)
Yeah, actually i just did a hangout session with my bro +JakeStrong 112 and +Albert An, talking about changing addiction to a good way. I mean, turning my addiction from porn into something good. The good thing is, you can see my face! The video is coming soon... really soon...
Okay, in this hangout, i actually asked about if porn can induce phobia. I think, they already provided a great answer, eventhough in the end, there is no psychological corelation between both of them. But, lately, since i get addicted to porn, i just re-developed 2 phobias. I mean, seriously! Not only that, after the hangout session, i also had a chat on Whatsapp with my friend, Andreas from South Africa, talking about facing the fear and of course, phobia.
Let's be honest, i have a phobia or fear on thunderstorms (the easier, let's just say, dark clouds, or in medical word, say it as astraphobia). I really feel afraid of that thing. It's actually kind of relapse. Because, i already had it for about 11 years ago, and already cured after 2 years struggle. And, at this year, i experienced it again. I actually wished this could be cured but, i don't know, because it's crazy..
The other phobias i just developed is fear of flying in bad weather. You know, last year, there was an AirAsia accident that happpened due to bad weather, like some imbalance due to flying toward dark clouds. Watching the news coverage make me feel afraid everytime i fly. But, i think, i can solve it well by preparing some stuff, like downloading some videos or songs to enjoy during flight.
The bad thing that happened recently is the rainy season is already approaching in my country. As you know, since my country is located in the tropical region, so we only have 2 seasons, dry season and wet season (rainy season). And, the situation in my city makes me really feared of rains, especially if it is heavy and includes thunderstorm.
Not only because it is scary, but also there could be bigger chance to get a blackout. It is really scary, because i have to get through this thunderstorm with no electricity around. I don't feel comfortable. What makes me really scared of thunderstorm is the booming and surprising sound, with some light that comes suddenly. You know, that makes me really shocked and feared also.
My parents even concerned about it, so right now, they asked me to get rid of it. So, since the rainy season has already started in my city, i decided to search for the solution. I found that the first line treatment against my phobia is by making habituation.
Habituation is actually a process of learning, it's like decrease of response after several stimulations. I know that everytime the thunder strikes, i really feel scared, so for now, i decided to get used to it, so one day, i can feel better. Not only that thing, i also need to start realizing that the thunder strikes will not hit you if you are in the safe place. For the blackout part, maybe, i need to start decreasing my usage of Internet or smartphone again, or i need to buy powerbank so i can still preserve some power when the blackout attacks.
Yeah, so right now, it's time to face the fear!! Yeah, because the best way to reduce your fear is by facing it like a warrior!
So, okay, it's about that time to face the fear and fight against it! Because, one day, if you lose, fear will control your life and it will be really bad. People maybe call you a loser for that.
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