Day 36
Sorry for my late update, i just finished my exam, and i scored well, not as expected, because i expect to get a really high score, but, i can see some good improvements thanks to this NoFap challenge.
I really got low scores since i get addicted to pornography, it really decreased my concentration, eventhough my concentration is not increasing well, but at least, there is significant improvement on it. My grade really decreased significantly lately due to porn addiction. I can think this will improve if i keep being consistent and humble throughout these next days. I am still struggling for 100 days NoFap challenge.
Anyway, this module that i already finished the exam is about health system. So, yeah, it really taught me about health system, especially in my country (for some of you who didn't know about me, i am a medical student).
Some of the materials taught me about the definition of the doctor, especially on how the doctor should be, or should act to create a good health care. Listening and reading to these materials made me thinking that to create those good health care or of course, to create lots of benefits on the community i will be working on, I HAVE TO CHANGE MYSELF!!
Seriously at past, that my life is so fucked up, i am not that clever, my score is low, i have less friends, i am somehow easy to be emotional, i can't set things clearly, even my bedroom is not well maintained. I am not that discipline. And, in general, I AM REALLY BAD AND USELESS!!
But, this module and also throughout this NoFap challenge, i think that there is NO BAD AND USELESS person on this lovely planet, there are only good people who weren't treated well by community, that's it!
People were born for some reasons and also people can create benefits to each other.
Honestly, throughout these NoFap challenge, i feel certain changes happened.. I called it as benefit of course, because most of the changes are positive for me. It is of course, great.. But, the change that i mean is not only from how people treated me, but also on how i treated people, and of course how i treated my life. Like determining the vision, targets, or range of changes we wish.
So far, this module that i just learned made me realized that being a medical doctor is not about making big deal of money, being called the most genius person, or whatever.. But, being a medical doctor is about how to help people physically, mentally, or socially, in a holistic way. To do that, i also need to change physically, mentallly, or socially..
I have to admit that NoFap has helped me to change mentally and socially. But, just by hoping from the effect of NoFap is not enough, we really need to change ourself mentally or socially, we need to create some life goals, life visions, or whatever good. So, one day, we can be a great person in the future, and of course if i can change our life goals or visions, it will also assist you to succeed in NoFap.
So, i think, NoFap and life changes are deeply interconnected to each other. Like, NoFap can help me for changes, and changes can help you on NoFap.
So, for me, i have to set a good visions, like i need to be a better doctor, not just better, but also a 5-star doctor. I don't want to be only one-finger doctor, meaning that the doctor that only instructs everyone, like patient, nurse, or other staff. I need to be 5-star doctor, like care provider, decision maker, community leader, communicator, manager. I also need to start learning those 5 things, and apply it to community i am in, or i will be in, someday..
Maybe, you can also create some 5-star yourself, like what you supposed to be in the future, or maybe you can create your 5-star formula for better life in the future.
So, to succeed myself, don't just hope for changes/benefits in NoFap, but also create it by yourself.. Changes that i mean should be a better change for life, not change into the worse of course.
And, one day, you can be the 5-star you!!
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